On the Cusp of Despair

It is a strange feeling
I have felt happy
A burden was lifted
And a project opened up
It is doing something I love
It may help others
It felt even like a liminal time.

Then this morning I watered my peace lily
It was given to me by a friend.
The plant has done well
New blooms continue to appear in their time
And I remembered another peace lily
Given to me after the sudden passing of my loved one
Who has meant more to me than words can convey
I know the sadness is there
It will never disappear
It is part of me.

I believe this reminder
That I am on the cusp of despair
Is a gift
It helps me ground
And embrace newfound joys
Without the shadow of fear
For I know my darkness as I walk towards the light.